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"You are here..."

That sounded more like a question than a statement. Small breeze started to blow around her causing her long, straight hair to sway in the direction of the breeze.

"For four years after his death, you never once come near this place. What are you doing here now?"

So, it's been four years since his death? I never realize how time just flew past, she thought to herself.

"Do you even consider yourself acquainted with him? If you do, why weren't you here before? What makes you come after all this time?"

Questions after questions were asked yet all of them were unanswered. Being absent all this while, is there really a reason for it all? Heartbreak? Unable to face the reality of his death?

His death magnified her fear of being alone. All her life, she has always hate being alone. Her parents died in a horrible car crash. She still remembers the day of their death. She was home alone with her nanny. Her parents were out for a wedding dinner.

She had a slight fever. That's why her parents left her with the nanny. It's not like she really needed the care of a nanny. It was raining heavily when they drove off. Just twenty minutes away from their destination, a speeding motorcycle came out of nowhere, crashing into her parents' car.

The motorcyclist got away with a slight scratch here and there but it ended the lives of her beloved parents. How ironic. A happy day with a sad ending. From then onwards, she has always hated being alone yet she never really trusted anyone to care for her or to love her.

She was always afraid that one day, the people she loved will just go away like her parents did. She might have been surrounded by the crowd but she's never really secure with the people around her. There will always be a barricade between her and the people around her.

All these changed when Janson came into her life. She never really trusted him at first. No matter how hard he tried to break that brick wall down, he just never succeed. She wouldn't allow him through her private wall.

What she wished wouldn't come true did just the opposite four years ago. Her nightmare came true again just ten years after her parents left her alone to fend for herself. This is why she never trusted in love ever again.

"Why does the people I care left me alone?" she has always asked herself this question but no answer came to her.

Her past with Janson started four years back. At that point of time, she was only starting to get used to living alone with whatever fortune her parents left her. They are not from a rich family but being an only daughter and child, life was going fine for the three of them.

It took her almost five years to get used to living alone cause there just wasn't anyone who could teach her how to live on her own. She was too young to even be independent. She have always have loving support from both her parents.

She wasn't a brat even though she's the only child. Her father has always taught her to be humble and be considerate of the feelings of others. He wouldn't let her run loose even though she's the only child. He believes that just because she's the only child doesn't mean that she could do things the way she wanted to without a care for the feelings of others.

Though he taught her a lot of moral values, but she was never taught to be independent. Being the only child could have been the biggest cause for that. However, things would never go the way humans wanted it to be. Humans can never predict what the future has in store for them.

Living alone is never an easy task. She learned how to cook bits by bits. She learned how to clean up the house. She even learned how to wash her own clothes. All these chores have always been taken care of by her mother and her mother never requested that she performed these household chores.

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"Oh no, the milk bottle is empty again. Guess I have to go to the convenient store to some and also stock up on my supplies." She said to no one in particular.

If not for her occasional lamentation to the empty, large house, it would have been so silent that you can hear a pin drop. The housekeeper does come by once a week to help her with cleaning the large house but most of the time, she'll be alone in the house.

She changed out of her usual house clothes and grabbed her purse before walking out the door. The sun is shining brightly and chirping of birds can be heard here and there, calling out to each other and answering each other. Such lovely sounds on a sunny afternoon.

"Welcome, miss."

She smiled briefly at the girl standing behind the counter. She took a shopping basket by the entrance of the store. Walking down the aisle in search of milk, she passed by an old couple who are chatting happily away to each other.

This sight reminded her of how nice it would be if her parents were still alive. That would never be case. She'll never be able to see this scene anymore. She, herself, didn't even know if there will come a day where she will walk around a convenient store with her arm around her husband just like the old couple.

"Let's see. I need to grab some biscuits and a packet of spaghetti. Oh, and some tomato paste too."

It might seem strange that a girl shopping by herself actually talks to herself while shopping but that's what she usually does when she shopped for her daily supplies.

"Hmm, what did I forget? Washing powder...yes, washing powder."

She was too busy checking the items in her basket that she wasn't really looking at where she's walking.

"Ouch!"

"Hey miss, are you alright?"

"Yes, yes. I'm fine. Sorry."

She looked up to see a guy with a pair of ocean blue eyes and nicely combed hair staring back at her. He looked like an Asian guy yet at the same time he looked a bit like an American. She couldn't decide whether he's an Asian or American. But that's not the problem right now. She had to stop staring or he'll think she's a weird girl.

"Be careful while you're walking. You won't know who you bump into if you're not looking. Bye."

He flashed her a pleasant smile. She can't help by smiled in return. He looked and sounded like a charming guy. After the guy walked out of her sight, she went back to her grocery shopping. The low rumbling of thunder in the distant tells her that it will rain soon. She better finished her shopping soon or she'll be caught in the rain.

Note: As you can see, there are two colors used for this story. When I changed the color from green to blue and vice versa, that is when I update the story. Hopefully, I'll be able to finish this story.