Ghost Lover (3)

Frustration is driving me up the walls with the situation on hand. It felt like the world had turned pitch black and I can only hear things but not see them.

I do not know who I am speaking to or rather what I am speaking to. I have been repeating the same answer over and over again that I am starting to feel like a broken record.

"Ar...are you a...," I gulped down the lump that has formed in my throat before continuing, "a..."

I couldn't quite bring myself to voice out that question that has been burning in my mind for the whole day now. I believed in ghosts but I just never thought I would actually bumped into one.

"Am I a what? Do you need to shiver so hard?" It's that same voice again. That disembodied voice.

"I don't even know who or what I'm talking to. Can you blame me for that?" My annoyance seemed to give me courage, even if just a little bit. It feels good to have some other emotions other than fear.

"Ooo...you want to get to know me better? That sounds like fun." The cheekiness in the voice is so obvious.

What?!! Get to know him...it...whatever...better?!! That sounds so outta my mind. Why should I, anyway?

"That's so not fun. Fine. I needed to know who or what you are." I'm giving up. I don't want to give in to my fear. Despite what my boyfriend think of me, I'm not the kind of girl who would willingly show my fear. That just feels so vulnerable to myself.

"Wow...wow...wow. No need to get all worked up like that. My name is TOP. Yes, as in the spinning top. But I'm not spinning right now, of course. Hahaha...XD I'm 21 years old. I don't know how I ended up like this. You being able to hear me but not see me whereas I can hear and see you clearly."

Though he sounds cheeky, but I thought I could detect some sadness when he said he doesn't know how he ended up the way he did right now.

21 years old? That means we are almost the same age. If he doesn't know how he ended up like this, that's a big pity. I'm very much alive. He feels alive but not really so, at the same time.

I gathered up my courage to ask that very crucial question that's been burning at the front of my mind now.

"Are you," I took a deep breath before continuing, "a ghost?" There. I had it out in the open now.

"Ghost? Well, to tell you the truth, I'm not really sure myself. I don't feel like I'm dead but with the situation right now, even I doubted myself."

Great. He can't even be sure of himself and doubted it too. I do understand what situation he meant. It just go against the logic. I can't see him but I can hear him and him saying he doesn't feel dead himself. That just don't explain anything at all.

Oh God, could you please explain to me what is happening to me??? Am I going crazy or what?

Inspired by Xing